Deus Ex Machina (Deluxe Edition)

by Jennifer Juan

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Love is a constant in the lives of every person that inhabits the planet we call home. It is ever evolving, and manifests in a million different ways, and in the brand new EP from Jennifer Juan, Deus Ex Machina, she explores the many ways she has met, experienced and lost love, from one off dates to year long endeavours, in the search for a solution to the most unsolvable problem of all, her own heart.


Exploring the passage of time, the healing process and the how we interact with love, Deus Ex Machina is a raw and emotional look at the never ending search for a happy ending.

The Bandcamp exclusive Deluxe Edition also includes a digital copy of the accompanying poetry collection.

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released February 7, 2020

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Jennifer Juan London, UK

Jennifer Juan is a cultural melting pot of an artist. She is a writer, a musician, a producer, a film maker and a podcast host, currently residing in the Kent countryside, but dreaming of the ocean. A tornado of darkness and delicacy, Juan creates engaging and powerful projects, using a variety of mediums and platforms, each dripping with her signature playful, yet powerful style of writing. ... more

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Track Name: Lifestyles Of The Loved And Blameless
You say you’re tired
Of trying to make me laugh
Because I
I never learned how to smile
You say I remind you
That life is real
You wanna forget a while

I’m your baby buzzkill
But you know that I love you still
And then I smile
Like you pretend I don’t know how to do
Oh Gemini
It’s just you and I
It’s just you and I

You said you’re tired of trying to work me out
I’m a fun mystery to talk about
You’ve been wondering what your life’s about
Oh Gemini
It’s just you and I

You say I’m
Your baby buzzkill
I say that I love you still
Oh Gemini
It’s just you and I
Track Name: Trauma
Say it isn’t so
Say that you don’t know
Say you’re gonna say it one more time
Say you
Say you don’t want me to go

Do you want to live your life alive?
Or are you happier playing dead?
Do you ever really want me to go?
Or is that just what you think you should have said?

I’m breathing too
I’m breathing too
I’m breathing too
I’m breathing too

You’re despondent
When I leave
When I leave
Holding on
Like you need me to breathe
Holding on
Like you need me to breathe

I’m breathing too
I’m breathing too

You say I’m the one you’re dreaming of
And for me
And for me that’s enough
I want to believe that life is a dream
I want to believe that life is a dream
And we can sleep through what we don’t want to see

I’m breathing too
I’m breathing too
Track Name: Angel Forever
Angel had an attitude
I could never resist
Parked up
By the bar
Sending me to heaven with her kisses
Miss her every time I smoke a cigarette
I didn’t let her go
So I got nothing to regret
Guess she’s an angel forever
Guess she’s an angel forever
Guess she’s an angel forever
Track Name: Waiting For Happiness
[Spoken]
A buzzfeed quiz told me
That in 2020
I’m gonna get love, marriage and popularity,
So
Bitch
I better

Lighting up
3AM
And I’m still
Rushing for you
‘Cause I adore you
‘Cause I adore you
I’m waiting for you

Anticipating your return
From the night that keeps you from me
‘Cause I adore you
I’m waiting for you
I’m waiting for you

Daddy
Don’t you torture me
No more
I’m waiting
Crying
Pacing at the front door
‘Cause I adore you
I’m waiting for you
I’m waiting for you

You keep me up late
But I just can’t wait
To be waiting for you
To be waiting for you
‘Cause I adore you
I’m waiting for you
I’m waiting for you

Don’t you torture me
No more
I’m waiting
Crying
Pacing at the front door
‘Cause I adore you
I’m waiting for you
I’m waiting for you

Please don’t leave me
I know I’m needy
Oh
You know I’m crazy
But I know you can save me
No one can love you more

‘Cause I adore you
I’m waiting for you
For you
‘Cause I adore you
I’m waiting for you

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Track Name: Closer To Madness
Let go
Let go
That’s what I know I’ve gotta do
Let go
But it’s not so simple
To say goodbye to the life that I knew

Let go
Let go
That’s what I’ve gotta do
It takes discipline to drop it all
Off a cliff
And let you in
And let you in

To let go
Takes me closer to madness
And I just can’t stand it
But I want you so
I want you so
I let go

I let go
So I can let you in
Because I’m crowded within
The scars of my past
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Track Name: Your Dad's Daydreams
You know that I'm the Queen
Of your dad's daydreams
But you've been on the scene
Since I was seventeen
All the boys that I love
They can't be with me
Married to the drink and the drugs
There's nothing left for me

It's late now
My love
You're drinking whisky
And sure enough
And sure enough
Your face says that you miss me

You know that I'm the Queen
Of the methadone scene
The patron saint of broken boys
Oh
But it brings me no joy
All the boys that I love
They can't be with me
They can't be with me

It's late now
My love
You're drinking whisky
And sure enough
And sure enough
Your face says that you miss me


I love you
Even when you're broken
It's not enough
It never works
My heart's too open

Oh
All the boys that I love
They can't be with me
Married to the drink and the drugs
There's nothing left for me
Baby it's way too late now

It's late now
My love
You're drinking whisky
And sure enough
And sure enough
Your face says that you miss me


It's late now
My love
You're drinking whisky
And sure enough
And sure enough
Your face says that you miss me
Track Name: Cloud Nine
Hiding my heart in the holes
Left by old lovers inside my soul
I thought you up in my head
Just like Sylvia said
Now I'm living on cloud nine

Tell me
Does that make sense?
Tell me
That you love me instead
Tell me
That I'm your girl
When I get blue
Blue

I'm rebuilding
The way that I'm living
Seeing my life in a new light
I don't remember who I was before
But maybe that's alright
And maybe that's alright
And maybe that's alright
That's alright

Tell me about always
Tell me the days that we have ahead
Tell me that you love me instead
Tell me that I'm your girl
Come and live in my world
Tell me that I'm your girl
Come and live in my world
Track Name: Aquarius
Running from today
I dye my hair blonde
Just to escape
You spend half your life
Half your life
Asking me what's going on

Don't you know
I can't say
Don't you know
I can't stay

I've been driving in your car
I've been driving late at night
Tell me that you miss me
Tell me that you miss me
Before I vanish into the moonlight
Into the moonlight

Don't you know
I can't say
Don't you know
I can't stay
Don't you know
I can't say
Don't you know
I can't stay
Don't you know
I can't say
Don't you know
I can't stay

Tell me that you miss me
Before I vanish into the moonlight
Don't you know
I can't say
Don't you know
I can't stay

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