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Deus Ex Machina (Deluxe Edition)

by Jennifer Juan

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You say you’re tired Of trying to make me laugh Because I I never learned how to smile You say I remind you That life is real You wanna forget a while I’m your baby buzzkill But you know that I love you still And then I smile Like you pretend I don’t know how to do Oh Gemini It’s just you and I It’s just you and I You said you’re tired of trying to work me out I’m a fun mystery to talk about You’ve been wondering what your life’s about Oh Gemini It’s just you and I You say I’m Your baby buzzkill I say that I love you still Oh Gemini It’s just you and I
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Trauma 03:17
Say it isn’t so Say that you don’t know Say you’re gonna say it one more time Say you Say you don’t want me to go Do you want to live your life alive? Or are you happier playing dead? Do you ever really want me to go? Or is that just what you think you should have said? I’m breathing too I’m breathing too I’m breathing too I’m breathing too You’re despondent When I leave When I leave Holding on Like you need me to breathe Holding on Like you need me to breathe I’m breathing too I’m breathing too You say I’m the one you’re dreaming of And for me And for me that’s enough I want to believe that life is a dream I want to believe that life is a dream And we can sleep through what we don’t want to see I’m breathing too I’m breathing too
3.
Angel had an attitude I could never resist Parked up By the bar Sending me to heaven with her kisses Miss her every time I smoke a cigarette I didn’t let her go So I got nothing to regret Guess she’s an angel forever Guess she’s an angel forever Guess she’s an angel forever
4.
[Spoken] A buzzfeed quiz told me That in 2020 I’m gonna get love, marriage and popularity, So Bitch I better Lighting up 3AM And I’m still Rushing for you ‘Cause I adore you ‘Cause I adore you I’m waiting for you Anticipating your return From the night that keeps you from me ‘Cause I adore you I’m waiting for you I’m waiting for you Daddy Don’t you torture me No more I’m waiting Crying Pacing at the front door ‘Cause I adore you I’m waiting for you I’m waiting for you You keep me up late But I just can’t wait To be waiting for you To be waiting for you ‘Cause I adore you I’m waiting for you I’m waiting for you Don’t you torture me No more I’m waiting Crying Pacing at the front door ‘Cause I adore you I’m waiting for you I’m waiting for you Please don’t leave me I know I’m needy Oh You know I’m crazy But I know you can save me No one can love you more ‘Cause I adore you I’m waiting for you For you ‘Cause I adore you I’m waiting for you Share this:
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Let go Let go That’s what I know I’ve gotta do Let go But it’s not so simple To say goodbye to the life that I knew Let go Let go That’s what I’ve gotta do It takes discipline to drop it all Off a cliff And let you in And let you in To let go Takes me closer to madness And I just can’t stand it But I want you so I want you so I let go I let go So I can let you in Because I’m crowded within The scars of my past Let go Let go Let go Let go
6.
You know that I'm the Queen Of your dad's daydreams But you've been on the scene Since I was seventeen All the boys that I love They can't be with me Married to the drink and the drugs There's nothing left for me It's late now My love You're drinking whisky And sure enough And sure enough Your face says that you miss me You know that I'm the Queen Of the methadone scene The patron saint of broken boys Oh But it brings me no joy All the boys that I love They can't be with me They can't be with me It's late now My love You're drinking whisky And sure enough And sure enough Your face says that you miss me I love you Even when you're broken It's not enough It never works My heart's too open Oh All the boys that I love They can't be with me Married to the drink and the drugs There's nothing left for me Baby it's way too late now It's late now My love You're drinking whisky And sure enough And sure enough Your face says that you miss me It's late now My love You're drinking whisky And sure enough And sure enough Your face says that you miss me
7.
Cloud Nine 03:10
Hiding my heart in the holes Left by old lovers inside my soul I thought you up in my head Just like Sylvia said Now I'm living on cloud nine Tell me Does that make sense? Tell me That you love me instead Tell me That I'm your girl When I get blue Blue I'm rebuilding The way that I'm living Seeing my life in a new light I don't remember who I was before But maybe that's alright And maybe that's alright And maybe that's alright That's alright Tell me about always Tell me the days that we have ahead Tell me that you love me instead Tell me that I'm your girl Come and live in my world Tell me that I'm your girl Come and live in my world
8.
Aquarius 02:53
Running from today I dye my hair blonde Just to escape You spend half your life Half your life Asking me what's going on Don't you know I can't say Don't you know I can't stay I've been driving in your car I've been driving late at night Tell me that you miss me Tell me that you miss me Before I vanish into the moonlight Into the moonlight Don't you know I can't say Don't you know I can't stay Don't you know I can't say Don't you know I can't stay Don't you know I can't say Don't you know I can't stay Tell me that you miss me Before I vanish into the moonlight Don't you know I can't say Don't you know I can't stay
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Love is a constant in the lives of every person that inhabits the planet we call home. It is ever evolving, and manifests in a million different ways, and in the brand new EP from Jennifer Juan, Deus Ex Machina, she explores the many ways she has met, experienced and lost love, from one off dates to year long endeavours, in the search for a solution to the most unsolvable problem of all, her own heart.


Exploring the passage of time, the healing process and the how we interact with love, Deus Ex Machina is a raw and emotional look at the never ending search for a happy ending.

The Bandcamp exclusive Deluxe Edition also includes a digital copy of the accompanying poetry collection.

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released February 7, 2020

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Jennifer Juan London, UK

Jennifer Juan is a cultural melting pot of an artist. She is a writer, a musician, a producer, a film maker and a podcast host, currently residing in the Kent countryside, but dreaming of the ocean. A tornado of darkness and delicacy, Juan creates engaging and powerful projects, using a variety of mediums and platforms, each dripping with her signature playful, yet powerful style of writing. ... more

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